Thursday, March 20, 2008 ♥
i think i may be too observant for my own liking. it's like making my life more untolerable. ha my strength has become my weakness too. sianit's like, on a bus/train/streets, the people passing by me...i look and observe how they dress, how they behave, how they carry themselves;i listen to what they say, how they converse, their unique voices.and i think (some examples)...woah, this girl's so smart/so confident/so attractive (be it looks/character etc)/so happywow, this guy's so thoughtful/so sweet/so attractive (mostly looks :P)/so intelligentthen...the comparison comes in. although pple always say, don't compare with others la...blah blahbut, it just happens la..just happens..first, will admirethen, will be enviousnext, will be jealousfinally, will come sadnessyou'll be surprise..even the most "plain jane" girl I can also feel inferior to.not to mention those who excel at their studies, or one thing or another.nothing surprises me that much now, i know that i just lack in everything. hai may pick up skills or information quicker than others, but, there's always a but..i remain stagnant after that. standstill. not moving. not improving. perhaps even deproving. hai think too much?i bother too much?i dislike myself too much?i shut myself out too much?i did too many wrong things?probably.
i just want to look at your smile
and observe it.
make time stop by singing
the LULLABY. ♥
[2:09 AM]
Sunday, March 02, 2008 ♥
i just want to look at your smile
and observe it.
make time stop by singing
the LULLABY. ♥
[4:27 PM]