Wednesday, March 01, 2006 ♥

A for absurd
B for bo liao
C for crazy
D for draining
E for expensive
O for obstruction
F for fretful
the above R jus some thoughts of mine abt exams...ooh do i hate to see pple stressing over exams or mugging like crazy jus 2 get a piece of paper...n to think tt it's due to this piece of paper tt turn us into monsters ---> easily jealous, often selfish, sometimes cunning, and occasionally ruthless creatures.

fighting n rushing to be no. 1 may not be everyone's goal but still, you can nvr deny d pride n glory of beating the rest n be on top of them...even a tie is nvr too gd...an outright victory is wat everyone hopes for... for yrs this competativeness has been encarved in all of us tt now, we feel upset over d slightest margin tt cost us our ToP position n cry because we are 2nd, not 1st.

often, i ponder over matters like wat if the world was jus one big place tt doesnt talk abt money nor authority but jus plain enjoyment n pleasure...wldnt it be better?we wouldnt be fretting over upcoming exams or retrenchment, there wldnt be any more backstabbing or betrayal, n everyone will be coexisting harmoniously w/o much worries or burdens.

Ahh...too bad euthopia will nvr exist...jus like i'll nvr be pleased wif an A2 in chinese while others r gettin 3s or 4s...i mus really apologise 4 those who had to endure d pain of listenin 2 me complain abt my 'bad' results...i noe i made u feel worse than it already is...jus my mistake...sorry pple...(esp 05S18)...

now it's jus a matter of making choices...to try again or to move on...ive gt until fri to decide which actually isnt much time so whoever's out there...can u pls help me by pointin out d right direction? (btw, if i retake means retakin orals too...but the diff between A1 n A2 is two whole marks...plus my other subj arent tt gd so i tot mayb i cld rely on my chi for U admission?)

i think i'm really messed up...my whole life's speedin past in front of me while i'm still so laidback n doin nth to catch up...i really think my heck care attitude is gettin d worse outta me...n i'm so gonna regret this nxt time...however there's like nth out there to make me want to do my studies properly...how? i'm jus one obstinate lazy fellow who wishes to go against anyone who tries to get my gear runnin...hopeless~

askin 4 help yet knowin help isnt gonna do much good...but in d 1st place, is there anyone willing n able to help???

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